a best friend kind of thing.
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2011-07-29
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i have such little time for tumblr these days. being a working woman sucks haha. and you’re gunna have to tell chris lamb yourself. you’re the one who sorta lead him on, not me. unless of course you REALLY don’t want to, in which case I’ll take it as my duty to inform him. but he may just be trying to be friends with you now cause he’s been messaging me nonstop too saying that we have to hang out when he gets home from his road trip.
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2011-07-26
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chris lamb is driving me nuts. i promised you i’d be nice, but either you need to tell him that i’m not into him or i’m going to have to. he seemed fun when we met but he’s just really not my type. i’m sorry.
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2011-07-25
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2011-07-15
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I love you, Alix. And i know you don’t want to hear my apologies. I just hope you really don’t hate me for this. I know I’ve been way attached to him.. and that’s why i’m so lost right now without him. I’m completely and 100% aware of how much I suck as a friend right now. I SWORE that i would come see you before you went to the Adirondacks.. and of course, I didn’t see you. I really need to get a clear head on my shoulders quickly or else our friendship won’t be the only thing I fuck up… thanks for trying to be patient and understanding.. although i guess being stuck home almost 24/7 is probably forcing some patience into you..
I hope I’m feeling up for the company of other people by the time you come home. I probably would have been doing better through all of this with you by my side anyway :/
love you so much best friend! hope your ankle isn’t feeling too shitty!
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2011-07-13
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2011-07-09
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it’s easy for you to say you’d rather be in my position because you’re not in it. and just because i’m handling it well doesn’t mean it isn’t hard as fuck every single day. and i would never, ever have chosen to see ryan every day and you NO days. even when i came home for that weekend in the spring to be with ryan and stay with him, i still came out for a little bit to hang out with you. i have never been as attached to a guy as you are to mike, and i never would have left you alone in my situation, not even for dominic, who is genuinely the love of my whole life.
maybe it was easier when we both had someone. maybe neither of us noticed as much because we were both distracted. and i’m not jealous, by any means, i would much rather be single. but it was easier. now that i’m stuck here all the time, it’s a lot easier to notice that you’re being a crappy friend.
as far as asking you about what’s going on with you and mike, i’m purposely not asking. i’ve done nothing but listen to you cry over him for the last ten months. and the truth is, i’m hurt and upset that you haven’t been there for me, so i’m tired of being there for you. the last time you guys “broke up” i came to your house at 730 in the morning and stayed all day, and you barely even talked to me. but that was okay, because you wanted me there and i was there.
i want you here. you’re not here.
i’m not mad, i understand the circumstances, and i’ve listened to the excuses. but that information still stands. and how i feel won’t change until that does.
btw, you looked very nice today, like you’ve lost weight. my family said so too.
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you wanted to get dropped off the day after he hit me with all this crap.. i didn’t know what to do. i was freaking out all day, trying to keep myself sane, and then i finally heard from him. you KNOW if this was last summer and that was Ryan, you would have used any excuse in the world to go be with him. i can’t help the way i feel. my world has been completely falling apart for a week now.. the only thing that keeps me going is the idea that as soon as he’s not with me i can crawl into bed and pretend nothing else exists. i start my job on the 18th.. its going to all crash down on me if i walk into that building as depressed as i’ve been the past week. i’ve apologized so many times and explained every time that i couldnt make it to your house, i’ve checked up on you when i could.. you haven’t even asked me once how i’m feeling, how things are with mike, or anything about it. i understand your leg is bionic and out of this world right now but my heart is shattering in a million pieces and probably will even more on tuesday when mike goes to court… i’d kill to be in your position right now.
